Some Of The Horrors Coming

 In January this year I sent this email to a good friend of mine. It is self explanatory and the Lord just put it on my heart to post it on my blog.

 I was just watching the movie "Midway", the 2019 production, and I thought that those men who fought in the war were once our heroes, men who had courage and bravery. They were true heroes who fought for the freedom of this nation. But then I saw civil war coming to this nation now - neighbor against neighbor, son against father, daughter against mother, husband against wife, and it brought tears to my eyes that we have sunken so low. It will be 10-15 years before it is really bad, but it is coming, something we have known for some time. I also saw that the Iranians will sneak a dirty bomb into the USA and blow up a stadium filled with people. I have seen this coming for some years but I never knew it would be the Iranians. I believe that it will happen very, very soon, probably within a year or two.

Uvalde Scool Massacre

 Once again the schools of this nation have been attacked by an evil person. In Uvalde, TX yesterday there were at least 22 people murdered by an 18-year old gunman. The politicians are already screaming for gun control, they want to take everyone's guns away, except for the one's that the criminals have stolen. They want to blame guns for the problem. The real problem, the real cause for these school shootings, is that this nation has thrown God out of the schools. He has been told that He is no longer allowed to influence the kids and that His principles are not "woke". Instead, every sexual and immoral perversion has been introduced into the schools and the children are being told to worship that, not God. 

These killings will not stop, either in the schools or in this nation until God is put back in place as the head and His principles and the Bible taught in schools. Unfortunately, that is not going to happen.

False Apostles And False Prophets

 Ps 141:5 - Let a righteous man strike me—that is a kindness; let him rebuke me—that is oil on my head. My head will not refuse it.

A little preface to this story. fifteen years ago I was going to a bible church in Dallas and got there a little early on Wednesday night. I was sitting in  the entryway talking to a guy who it turned out was the Chairman of the Board of Elders. He was an intelligent guy with a strong personality and we enjoyed bantering with each other. Sometime during the conversation he mentioned that he had been a pilot. I said "Yea, you have a pilot's arrogance", not meant in an ugly way, just the way guys with strong personalities challenge each other. His response was the verse above. I was stunned! A man just admitted  his sin and repented of it! His humility was stunning! Never before or after have I seen such a thing, it was wonderful to see. It was truly an amazing experience!

Last week after I had written the message "Prayers For Linda", a friend of mine who was on my mailing list but whom I hadn't seen or spoken to in probably thirteen years emailed me and invited me to her church, telling me a little about the leader. I looked it up on the internet and immediately saw that the head of the church called himself "Apostle Raymond". The website was advertising a Holy Spirit Conference on Sunday afternoon at 5:00 at a church less than a mile from my house. I told her that I would come but that I had a real problem with people who promote themselves by using "Apostle" or "Prophet" as their title, it is a huge red flag to me. It speaks of the utmost in pride and arrogance, they are impressed with what they think they are. They think they are something very special and should be looked up to and admired. I called the church number listed on their website and got a voice mail "This is Apostle Raymond ......", another red flag.

But I went on Sunday and was able to see my friend for a couple of minutes before the service when she told me that "Apostle" Raymond had gone to the Kenneth Hagin School. That was another HUGE red flag because Kenneth Hagin is one of those "name it and claim it" fools like Kenneth Copeland, Benny Hinn, Marylin Hickey, Joyce Meyers and others of their ilk. They think that you can just go to the Bible and claim any verse you want and confess it enough times and it will come to pass. Of course they would never claim the verse in Luke 14:33 - In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples because that is not a "positive confession" verse. Nor would they ever claim the verses about sharing in Jesus suffering because those are not positive confession verses. They claim only the "good" verses as their "rights in Jesus". But that is for another message in the future.

 Anyway, then I went into the auditorium and saw the huge crowd there was less than 10 people. "Apostle" Raymond was very well known obviously, a great man of God. "Apostle" Raymond walked in and started the service with a time of worship.  During the time of worship I felt a great pain in my heart because I didn't know what would happen with Linda, whether God would honor my prayers for her or not. I was in terrible pain and it took every ounce of strength I had to keep my composure and not burst out in tears and sobbing. But I didn't want to interrupt the service and call attention to myself, so I controlled my emotions, hoping that during the time of personal ministry later in the service that God would give me a word of hope for her. 

 Then "Apostle" Raymond went around the place greeting his huge following and came to me and introduced himself "Hi, I'm Apostle Raymond!" I introduced myself as Cliff Hilbert . Then I told him that God doesn't care about how many people were there, He only cares about people being ministered to personally and individually. (Earlier he "apologized" to the huge crowd for the small number of people there, and promised that it would be much larger in the future.) I was trying to encourage him not to be embarrassed by the few people there, and he smiled. Then he went back up on the stage and it was time for the offering. He said that the building cost $14,300/month. Yes, the actual building cost that much each month for the church that was leasing the space, but all he was doing was using the building on Sunday afternoons. He was not the actual lessee, he only paid a small amount to use it on Sundays, but  this way he hoped to get large donations for himself.

 Then "Apostle" Raymond begin to "preach"for over an hour and he was all over the place during his sermon, meaning that he talked about fifteen or twenty different topics, none of them connected. He was talking to hear himself talk and trying to look important - he didn't succeed in looking important. He kept asking for "amens" and asking if he was helping anyone, desperately seeking approval from everyone. He got virtually no response. Maybe he wasn't yelling loud enough. I went out and sat in the lobby for about fifteen minutes because I couldn't take anymore of his inane babbling.

 When he finally finished his "sermon" he began to minister to people prophetically, with a prophetic word for everyone there, except me. He asked if everyone had been ministered to (obviously with a crowd that large it was hard for him to remember if he had ministered to everyone), I said "no" and went up to be prayed for.  His first words to me were "He (God) didn't give me a word for you". He asked me what I wanted prayer for and I told him Linda and my health. He then told me "Do you believe that God wants to heal you now?" I told him that God would heal me whenever it was His time for Him to heal me. But he continued to try and get me believe that in order to be healed I needed to believe that God wanted to heal me right now - I wouldn't, and simply told him that God would heal me when He was ready to heal me.  I didn't fall for that Kenneth Hagin foolishness, it is utter nonsense. So he prayed a general prayer for me and I left. I wonder if Lazarus had enough faith to be raised from the dead?

On Monday I received a call from someone at the church telling me that "Apostle" Raymond wanted to have lunch with me this week. I said that would be fine but he must read my story "In His Sandals" before we met, and I gave them the link. We set the lunch for Wednesday afternoon. I received an email saying that a lunch was set for "Apostle and Clifford Hilbert" on Wednesday at 3:00. Over the next two days I prayed in the spirit for about four hours about this meeting because I didn't know God's purpose for it. I suspected "Apostle" Raymond wanted to try and convince me that Hagin's idea of faith was the correct one - what idiocy! - and that he wanted me to join his church. Then God let me know what the meeting was actually for - I had a prophetic word for "Apostle'"Raymond. 

We met at a little hamburger joint near my house and ordered burgers for lunch. We sat down while waiting for the burgers and he asked me a little about myself and I told him how God had me give up my executive search firm in 1983 and stay home and read the Bible for eight hours a day - start in the beginning and read it through, over and over and over - for nine months. Then He had me sell everything I had and led me into the wilderness for the next thirty eight years, continuing to read through the Bible, not reading books about the Bible, but just reading the Bible itself from beginning to end and let the Spirit of the Lord teach me what He wanted me to learn, not what man wanted me to learn.

The hamburgers arrived and we started to eat. I then told him that I had a prophetic word for him and that it was in the form of a question. "Why do you think you are so important?" ( I was hoping that he would respond as the church elder I mentioned at the beginning of this message had, I was sure that he would. I was sure he would humble himself before the Lord and see what he was doing.)  I could see the pride in him rise up and he pompously said that he didn't think he was important. I told him that God saw what his real thoughts were and so did I. I told him that he was trying to make himself look important by always referring to himself as "Apostle" Raymond, that he obviously took great pride in that title. He started arguing about it and I told him to argue with God, not me, because I'm just the messenger. I then gave him the verses:
Matt 23:8-10 "But you are not to be called "Rabbi", for you have only one Master and you are all brothers. And do not call anyone on earth "father", for you only have one Father, and He is in Heaven. Nor are you to be called "teacher", for you have one Teacher, the Christ".

His response was "Well, That could be interpreted in several different ways". In other words, he knew he was wrong but had too much pride to admit it. Then he told me that he read my story "In His Sandals"and that I was proud and had a great hatred for the body of Christ, trying to intimidate me. With disdain in his voice he accused me of being self-taught in the Bible, not having gone to one of the "famous" Bible schools. He would have told the real Apostle Paul the same thing. I got up and walked out, I had done the job God sent me to do. 

 Matt 23:25-28 -  Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence. ²⁶ Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of the bones of the dead and everything unclean. ²⁸ In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.

Folks, when you run across people who refer to themselves as Apostle so and so, or Prophet so and so, run away from them as fast as and as far as you can. Do not pass Go, do not collect your $200,  run away from them immediately. Matt 24:24 -  For false messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect.

Yes, they can have gifts of the Spirit, they can even have different anointings - God gives them those to test their hearts, to see if they will respond with humility or with great pride. Unfortunately, some let those gifts go to their head and become filled with pride thinking they are great men of God. They are the ones spoken about in Matthew 7:22-23"Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ ²³ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’  He will tell them "You didn't do it for Me, you did it to make yourselves look important. You never fooled Me".

 The true apostles and prophets would NEVER, absolutely NEVER, NEVER refer to themselves using those titles or allow themselves to be called by those titles. God would put me under the dungeon if I ever referred to myself as "Prophet Clifford", He would discipline me very, very severely. We are here to SERVE the Lord's people, not to lord it over them or act as if we think we are something special. Do not be fooled by these charlatans! Do not become their disciples.

 

Prayers for Linda - updated on 7/11/24

My friends who have been following my blog, I need your prayers for Linda, a woman who God brought into my life last year as my new sister and whom I love as if she were my sister from birth. She is a woman with the beautiful heart of a caretaker, a tender hearted  and kind person, who also is strong-willed. Those are wonderful qualities when used in a Godly manner. 

Unfortunately she has been in a relationship with someone for several years who is a narcissist, a people user, an alcoholic and a druggie. He is a servant of the evil one and has captured her emotionally. God has led her to break off that relationship 95% in the past few months through my love and prayers. But the last 5% is the hardest for her to let go of, it is also the most dangerous. I covet your fervent prayers for her. 

On March 2 the Lord led me to begin a 40-day period of fasting one meal a day and praying for her one hour a day, most of the time more than one hour a day. I have never been in such an intense spiritual battle in my life, and at 76 years old it is wearing me out. But I will continue on until the end and hope that God will answer my prayers and harden her heart against that man and completely break off the relationship forever. 

God is extremely serious about this and has given her several severe warnings in the past few weeks, especially in the last week. If she obeys her life will be wonderful, safe, happy and filled with joy. However, if she doesn't let him go completely the results will be catastrophic and extremely painful for her. Unfortunately, it will also be terribly painful for me because it would break my heart to lose her, to see her waste away from cancer, that is how serious God is about this. She will also be carjacked and her best friend, her beloved dog, will die. God is deadly serious about this. He demands obedience.

Linda is strong-willed and I can do no more to try to convince her to end this relationship completely and forever. The only thing I can hope on is prayer, which I have been doing a lot of. But it is an intense spiritual battle and I need your prayers also. The battle is between good and evil, and I don't want evil to win. Please keep her in your prayers daily. Pray for God to give her the strength to end this relationship forever. Pray for the Lord to win this battle with satan. 

Thank you! I'll let you know what happens. 

4/16/22

The day before my 40 days of fasting and prayer for Linda ended she called me and told me that she was going to be Chip's caretaker, regardless of my advice and the warnings of the Lord. The next day, the end of the fast, God had me write her and tell her that she had been warned, and severely warned, and that she had one final chance to choose to follow God or continue down her disastrous path, choose good or choose evil. And I told her that if she chose the path of evil then I would not be there to help her when the disasters came. Unfortunately, she choose the path of disaster. 

That same morning I had a dream in which I was in the passenger seat of a moving car and my door was wide open. The meaning of the dream was that I was not the driver, but just a passenger in a car that Linda was driving (her life's path) and my heart was wide open to her, I loved her so dearly as my sister. I was there to offer advice and counsel as to what God's direction for her life was, but I couldn't force her to take that advice.  But with my heart wide open there came a great danger of me being badly injured if her life turned into a disaster. As a watchman/prophet I saw that she was headed towards a great and horrible wreck if she didn't change course. When she told me that she was not going to change course I had to close the door to my heart to protect it. I knew that if I didn't the coming wreck could very well destroy me because my love for her was so great that I might not survive the pain when she is badly hurt by the tragedies that are coming her way. 

Did God answer my prayers for her? No. She made the choice to continue on knowing that disaster was just ahead. But, because of that dream, He did have me harden my heart so that I wouldn't be badly hurt when she wrecks. The 40 days of fasting and prayer were apparently also to tell me that I had to get out of this relationship before disaster struck. Yes, it hurts me to have to end this relationship because she was truly my sister and I loved her so dearly. But there was only one way, and that is God's way.  

 

 Isaiah 55:8-9 - “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your way  and my thoughts than your thoughts.

  

Addendum

Ending the relationship with Linda is one of the most painful things that I've ever had to do. It has torn my heart apart and I have cried buckets of tears since God had me sever our relationship. It hurts terribly! The pain has been so great that twice I have cried so intensely, so deeply that I thought I was going to pass out, even leading me to the ER one time to make sure that nothing was physically wrong with me. I hurt also because I never wanted to do anything to hurt her. She was hurt too much already. It is like grieving for someone you love who has just died. It is an horrible experience that only those who have lost a loved one can understand. Thank God the grief comes in waves and not all at once, otherwise it would kill me.

 This is certainly not the way I would have handled all this. I would have been loving, kind, understanding, compassionate and patient, like I was for the seven months she was in my life. God had bonded our hearts together like we were brother and sister from the days we were born and I loved her dearly. If it had been up to me I would never have given her that ultimatum to choose evil or good, that just isn't my way of doing things. To me that's not how you show love. But God's ways are not our ways. This is what He requires of me: Micah 3:8 - But as for me, I am filled with power, with the Spirit of the Lord, and with justice and might, to declare to Jacob his transgression, to Israel his sin.

 There is a "good" side to this, if you want to call it "good". If I had not ended the relationship, then when the tragedies do come upon her - the warnings that God had given her which are going to cause her horrible pain and intense suffering - I would have been there to share in her pain, to take her pain into my heart, to carry it on my shoulders, and it would have been so heavy it would have destroyed me. It didn't matter if her disobedience to God had caused these things to come upon her, I would still have been there for her - but God would not let that happen, not let me be there for her. I told her when I began the 40-day fasting and prayer for her that when it was over that I could do nothing more for her because I was absolutely exhausted from all the battles that I had been doing for her in the last seven months. She accepted that, and the consequences. 

 Because of the unbelievable stress that the battles of the past 39 years have caused me, I could not have emotionally handled Linda's pain also.  It would have destroyed me. I would have been in a mental institution before it was all over, it would have completely broken me. I would have taken on her pain that intensely because she is my sister and I love her so dearly. I already was carrying her pain for the past seven months, the pain of her relationship with Chip for the last six years, plus all my own pain from the last 39 years, and am absolutely exhausted from it, worn out physically and emotionally. So, by God having me end my relationship with Linda before those terrible disasters come upon her, He was saving me from a complete breakdown. I guess that maybe that could be considered a "good" thing. 

 But, if after some of the horrors come upon her she sees the error of her ways and and puts the evil one out of her life, then I would take her back into my life immediately. I'm not angry with her, she is still my sister whom I love dearly, that will never change. But I cannot support her and stand with her while she is being deliberately disobedient to God. Yes, it is traumatic for me, horribly painful, but it's what God requires of me.

 So, what is all this about, what is God's purpose in all I've been through with Linda?  It is about the way that God feels about this nation. He has warned and warned and warned the USA for many years now, He has shown us what His judgment will be on this nation if we do not repent and turn from our wicked and evil ways.  He has pleaded with us time after time after time to turn around and return to Him and His ways. He has shown us the error of our ways and what He demands us to do. He has let us know far ahead of time what will happen if we do not obey Him. 

 Yet, this nation has refused to listen to Him, refused to repent of its wickedness and turn from its perverted ways. God built this nation and blessed it like no other nation in history. He showed us what His love and blessings are like. He has also shown us how compassionate and patient He is. He has waited and waited and waited for us to make the decision to turn around and return to Him. But we have refused. Like I hurt for Linda, so also does God hurt for this nation. He hurts because we have persisted in our ways and now He is going to have to destroy the USA. Yes, His heart hurts, like mine does. He is in pain as I am because He is going to have to turn His back on this nation that He loves so dearly.

 Throughout history He has used His prophets to portray what His heart is like in regard to a nation, city or individual. He is using this situation with Linda as an example of  how He cries for this country and how painful it will be for Him when He turns away from the USA and sends judgment upon us.  But judgment will surely come. ONLY when we repent and turn from our evil ways will He turn back to us. ONLY then will He begin to show His love to this nation again. Anyone who thinks that they might want to be a prophet is a fool.

 There's also another lesson to be learned from this. Matt 10:34-36 -  Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. ³⁵ For I have come to turn“‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—³⁶a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.’

  Those days are here, now God is demanding that we separate ourselves from the evil in this world. God told us that we would have troubles, battles, tests, affliction. He didn't tell us to make peace with everyone. He told us that we would have trouble, we would be different, that we would be hated even by our own families, by our parents, sons, daughters, brothers and sisters because of our views and lifestyles and that we could not participate with them in their sins, that we had to be separate, different. That's what is happening with me right now. Obedience to Him is the only way, no matter how much pain it costs us. Yes, it hurts terribly.

  I had a friend whose son was a homosexual, something that truly bothered her. But she and her husband invited their son and his homosexual lover to spend a few days with them "to show them love". Never once did they confront them about their sinful lifestyle. Their home is now perverted, and unclean spirits now can come and go as they please.  

 I had young friend who thought she was a Christian and thought that obama was a wonderful man, that homosexual love was a beautiful thing, that abortion was a woman's right. I tried to reason with her, to show her the evil of those things. I sent her many Bible verses to back up what I was saying. But she refused to listen. She has been seduced by the perversions of the younger generations. She no longer wants anything to do with me . That's exactly what Jesus was talking about in the verses above.

 God sends people to me who need love, compassion, understanding and kindness, and I give them those things in abundance. But far too many times when I offer them counsel and show them things that they must do to prevent bad things from happening to them again in the future , or things that they must give up, they refuse to listen - like Linda. She told me that I am a good shepherd. But a shepherd cannot force the sheep to go on the right path. If they chose the wrong path even when they've been warned otherwise, the shepherd must set them free and let them learn from their disobedience.

 God doesn't tell us to get along with the world, He tells us to be different, to be an example of holiness. We have to separate ourselves from those who refuse to listen to God's warnings about holiness and obedience. We cannot let them think that their sins are just another lifestyle.

July 11,2024 - Two years later

When I had to let Linda go it almost broke my heart. It was like a heart attack, a stroke, and it hit me hard. It hit me physically, emotionally and mentally. I have always enjoyed exercising, going to the health club and using their equipment and swimming pool, I would spend about an hour there. But after losing Linda I could only exercise about fifteen minutes before I would get light-headed and dizzy. Then I had to go home. That continued for almost eighteen months before I could extend it to thirty minutes. But now, even over two years later, I can still only exercise for thirty minutes before I get light-headed, dizzy. 

 Mentally I felt like I was ninety years old. I couldn't think nearly as well as I had before, my mind was much slower. My thought process wasn't working near as well as it had before, my mind was not nearly as sharp as it had been before. My memory was severely affected. Yes, it hit me that hard.  It was almost like a stroke. Over two years later I have recovered probably 75%, but certainly not 100%.

Emotionally my nerves were shot, my heart felt like a huge piece of it had been ripped out of me. I tried to get medication for it from my doctor at the VA but God would not let that happen, He made me go through it without any help, all on my own. It didn't take much for me to break down in tears, the least little thing would hit me hard. I'd be watching tv and just start crying. I'd be reading a novel and anything resembling emotional pain would cause tears to flow from my eyes. Even at this date over two years later, I have still not recovered completely. 

This has been absolute hell. Since I had to sever the relationship with Linda I have not prayed or read the Bible. I haven't yet forgiven God and don't know when I will, and I don't care. People who think God is a good God who just wants to bless you are foolish little children.

 

 

Judgment Gets Worse

 On January 26, 2021 I wrote a message titled "A Prophetic Word To Joe Biden in which I wrote "From this point forward the USA will become the most perverted and sinful nation in history. There will be no more patience by God, no more mercy for an evil people". 

The lukewarm Christians of this nation refused to "trouble" themselves to go to D.C. in September, 2020 to humble themselves, repent and turn from their wicked and evil ways during the weekend of repentance assembled by Jonathan Cahn. Less than 50,000 people showed up there, when there should have been 50,000,000. God's mercy on this nation ended then. He sent me to D.C. to be there the day after that gathering to, what I thought was, repent for this nation. Instead, when I went to the Capitol that Sunday morning, there was an huge fence all around the Capitol complex preventing anyone from getting to the Capitol building - preventing me from getting on the steps of the Capitol and repenting for the sins of this nation. Like He told Jeremiah, I was not to pray for this nation, it's sins had gone too far. I knelt down by a bench and prayed in the Spirit for a few minutes but I knew that I was not praying for this nation, unless I was praying for judgment to be poured out upon this evil nation and it's politicians. Jer 7:16 - So do not pray for this people nor offer any plea or petition for them; do not plead with me, for I will not listen to you. Jer 11:14 - Do not pray for this people or offer any plea or petition for them, because I will not listen when they call to me in the time of their distress. Jer 13:14 -  I will smash them one against the other, parents and children alike, declares the Lord. I will allow no pity or mercy or compassion to keep me from destroying them.

On the drive back to Dallas a few days later I was enraged because of things that I thought God said He was going to do for me on that trip, things which He didn't do. When I got home I tore down the 4' x 4' sign I had put on the upper eaves of my house several months before that - a sign that had on it the verse 2Chron 7:14 - "If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land".  I didn't realize that the anger inside me was God's anger at the people of this nation for their lukewarm attendance at the event at the Capitol several days before. He has had it with this nation.

Soon after that day Joe Biden was elected into office as President. No, the election wasn't "stolen", it was God who put Biden in office as part of His judgment upon this evil nation because the people refused to repent and turn from their wicked ways in September. Since he has been in office over 500,000 people have died from covid-19. Since he has been in office the USA has been humiliated in Afghanistan. Since that day the USA has been humiliated by Russia invading the Ukraine. Since that day gas prices have risen higher than ever before. Since that day inflation has reached higher at any time since Carter was President. It is obvious that the USA will soon be humiliated when China invades Taiwan. The USA has signed its death warrant and will no longer be the nation that all the others looked up to before. Instead we will be a nation of scorn, one that other nations look down upon -  we already are.

We were once the most prosperous and strongest nation in history. We were once a nation that loaned money to other nations. We now owe more money to other nations than any country in history. We are a debtor nation.

Politics

 Many are wondering why I have not brought up politics on my blog. 

2Tim 2:4 - No one serving as a soldier gets involved in civilian affairs. NIV

I am a soldier in God's army and thus cannot allow myself to be involved in politics. There have been cases when I wrote things about specific political parties and their leaders, but it was only to point out the evil in a specific party or President.